Lost soul

My heart is heavy, wanting to escape it’s own cage of protection, It longs to feel yours like it use to, especially now. This world has smothered you for so long. I have seen and known your struggles, we have been through the worst storms together. Yet now I grieve, we have thousands of miles between us. I almost lost you in a blink of an eye, lost you to your beautiful darkness, the vail that has covered you. I know it has called to you many times, but we have always laughed in it’s face together, hand in hand.
Please I beg you, reach for your light. Fight to stay on this plane of existence. There is so much beauty in this world not to fight for your peace. I can’t see a world without you, my heart is so heavy. My soul calls to yours, surrounding it in all my love.

A Comfortable Change

Your heart has cried to me in the darkness for too long. Voices and sounds of a deep pain hidden away under a blanket of formed emotions. Holding on to a dream we both created, a thick vale of a fairy tail story of true love and a never ending romance. Almost a decade of time for us, nine years of joy and friendship. Sharing our thoughts and dreams. Yet you kept me from your guilt, the thoughts in the back of your head.

The itch that you would never reach; without letting go of your walls built on fear. They began to leak through the seams, your soul screamed for acceptances, freedom, and honesty. I watched you struggle in your prison, yet I continued to let you live there. Telling myself is would all pass by. So I became comfortably numb, I chose to sit in silence, painting on our smiles, while you struggled with your mind. Your heart cried to be heard…my love…your soul begged mine to truly listen…I hear you now….

I will no longer allow this vale to cover our lives. Our protective blanket of emotions can no longer serve us. We have to let go of the image we placed on ourselves. We chose this life, these challenges. Spirit has guided us right to this point, knowing every step towards understanding our true selves. We knew that we would need each other to get to the other side. No other soul would have accepted our challenge, no other soul would have been the right fit, for this inner journey, this time around. So we took the leap, smiling, hand in hand, understanding we had one hell of a ride in front of us. Knowing we would forget, only to remember ourselves through the other.

We will always love one another, always share so many amazing memories. My love for you will always Be; it has just moved with the tides of change. We can’t hold each other back any longer. Know that this is not goodbye, our souls have known one another for so long and will continue to know each other; we can’t just say goodbye. So I will say…my love…you have touched my heart and soul, in so many ways. You have changed me for the better, you gave me the time and patience to help me find my own worth. Now it is your turn, uncoil yourself dear one, the winds of change will help make your world move again.
My love for you is so much more then our label in this life. I want you to find your true hearts call. You are and forever will be my twin flame. Know that neither one of us is alone. I truly can’t wait to watch you grow for yourself.

Love and light from one shining spirit to another.

Acceptance

I have loved you before,
I have known your soul before,

I wanted acceptance
I wanted grace

I felt your shift,
I felt your change,

I saw your soul,
I saw your light,

You wanted honesty
You wanted authenticity

You felt my shift
You felt my change

You saw my soul
You saw my light

So we took this leap
So we took this jump

Now we walk together
Now we awaken together

Creating our truth
Creating our world

Two souls ready for anything!

-Rain W

Mind Storm

Lost, under the mind, your mind, your own brain. You yourself, the self you never show the world, yet you show too much, too much of nothing. Lost in thought, the thoughts of what could be, what you think should be. Step out of the box you built. Tear down the cement that blocks your truth.

Found, under the skin, your human skin. Acknowledgment of the mixture of fear and understanding, the chemical exchange to morph the sphere. Relax into yourself. Allow the Alchemy to transform your mind, to allow the flow within.

Acceptance, above the struggle; this is the last step towards your true calling. The small voice we pretend we don’t hear; it always has something to teach us, but it is never pushy, it knows you have a choice to listen. Not with your ears, for they play tricks on us.

Listen with your own soul’s insight. There is no better time or place. This is your time, this life is your awakening. Stop dreaming of what could be, start living what is. You are your own savior, your own life boat. The waves of the mind are a human storm.

Teach yourself how to swim, otherwise you will drown in your own self-loathing. Life is more then the storms, go with the flow of positive change, and listen to that voice inside.
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Human Circuits

Closed circuits of thought, we see ourselves through the discernment of our logical Minds. What we sense around us, is what we know, what we identify with, what we feel.

Caught up in the perception of our own human surroundings. It’s easier to follow the herd. Easier to ignore the inner voice that is our own consciousness.

Why is it so formidable to look inside, to listen to our innermost being? It will speak only of your truth, your own radiating light work. It is your true knower.

What does the knower know really?More than we do, it has been here before. Many lifetimes many different ways. How many seasons will pass, how many moments have we missed just wishing it would develop into something more, something useful.

Just trust in yourself, have the confidence to acknowledge the past; and brake free from the human circuit.

-Uprooted Fears Awake Inner Peace-

I don’t know if I can be a strong person. I am trying with everything in me to be what I think I deserve. I feel so lost, my pain has been deep and it has drown me before. The waves of my thoughts crash over me and I can’t see. I feel my inner self and know it found it’s strength from somewhere.

My soul stands on the rocks above the waves, and it watches me struggle; yelling for me to be powerful, telling me I can be atop the rocks if only I can get myself there. If only I can swim against the current. It seems that I will lose no matter what. I drown because I believe I only have myself.

I scream out “She has let me down more than anyone. She put the chains on me, she pulls me down and tells me, I will never fly again.” How can I swim against the current of my life and emotions, when the only one who has been there for me, has found strength above the chaos. It’s voice is quiet and soft, never pushes to be heard, but always present.

I see now that I have pulled myself through the mud of my own comfortability. Now I see, and now I want to be clean. So I threw myself into a sea of thoughts. Hoping someone would jumped in after me, wishing that someone would just save me. No, the inner soft voice tells me to save myself; to learn from my human mistakes. So that I may come out clean, with my beautiful wings of enlightenment.

My human fears take over and I begin to tell myself “you are stuck in this prison of your mind. You will never escape these four walls; where do you go from here?” So I believe I am left to drown….
NO! I require myself to let go, to lay below the ocean; try to breathe on my own. Is that what I need? YES. As I fall into myself I will begin to slowly find my own fight, my own strength. My life lessons hidden at the bottom of the sea. At the floor, at the lowest point, is where I find the darkest parts of my own self.

If I take it moment by moment, give myself the courage to reach for the sky. I fear I may lose myself to time. I may not be fast enough to keep going, to awaken myself in this life. I hope when I have dug up the chains that pull me down into the quicksand that is my ego. When I finally swim to the top and soar across the open sky. When I finally find myself above the deep ocean of thoughts. I know I will connect with her, connect with my true nature, my inner peace.

Wounded souls

They say time heals all wounds. Some self-inflicted wounds can only be fixed by any ever so careful healer. Don’t run from the Healer. Pain is always part of the process. Pain is what makes us human. We have to know the hurt to know the problem. We have to feel it within our own soul, to find our truth. The people who are meant to be in our lives, they will look into our darkest parts and shine the light. It may be bright and blinding at first. Filled with the cobwebs of our thoughts, the despair, our own self hate and fears. Our broken self. They know how to make us realize how to feel. The moments that make us breathe true air again. So enjoy the moment, feel the love the universe has for your beautiful soul. The healer pulls wounds apart, the pain is real. The Healer takes your soul and peels away the corrosion, the dead parts. It is an ugly process, but the darkest and the most hidden parts of ourselves are the most beautiful. The world needs to see it, and we need to experiences the pain; so we can know the love that’s in us. Life is meant to be shared, and there is a personal void that we all face in ourselves. A void that is too scary and unknown, to walk through alone. Something we believe is only darkness and Shame; If you are strong, and with the right souls next to us, even if it’s just our own. We can look through the void with no fear, and realize it is only another door. A door that leads to the beautiful truth, our own truth. Our own true enlightenment.
So no, not all wounds heal with time; life will keep pushing, pushing us to our own breaking points, to test us. Find the healer in our lives, the ones that will pick up the pieces and give you new eyes. Give your broken soul, now filled with gold back to you, more beautiful than ever.

Deeper Connections

There are times when emotions just hit you so intensely. You don’t even know how it will affect you till you go through it, till you perceive it in your own life.

I really believe us humans need to love each other more, be there for each other. Who cares if you can’t understand their situation, or you hate yourself and can’t see through that wall. Put yourself in their shoes….just love.

We all have been down the depression road, and everyone seems to avoid the human going through their worst. Because it stir up our own fears. What that person really needs is love and to not feel alone.

Don’t make them believe what they already think about themselves…..just be there for each other, Be the light and the change you want to see in the world.

love and be loved

Here i am again…..

I just finished reading this awesome book, called “Journey Home” It is about finding your spirituality again and the purpose for your life on earth.. I just love how they explain who and what god is. The book is great!!

“I represent the source for all matter. I exist that I exist and am the reason for the universe to exist. I live in the highest scientific paradoxes imaginable, but I am responsible for emotions of a single human heart. I am the smallest part of physics and the largest part of the universe. I represent all light. I am the space between the nucleus of the atom and the electron haze. I am the most abundant force in the universe and the most powerful source of energy. I am from the most distant, yet most powerful source in the universe. I am the sands in the hour glass of time, yet I am the center, were there is no time. I am the creative force that allows physics to respond to consciousness; there fore I am a miracle…I AM LOVE!!”

that pretty much sums it up. god is love…we are loved…thus we are part of god
just wanted to share my thoughts.

love and light
Renee

change your reality

Thanksgiving, a time to fill our bellies full of turkey. To be grateful and thankful for what we have, really its a time to dwell on the NOW part of life. What is it that you have? Take a look at what is around us, enjoy THIS moment. I have really started to understand the true power of our thoughts, good and bad. What is it that you want?
Just think, if we were to take a little time everyday to think about what we are thankful for in our life. That would shift our perspective on every matter. Thats why i love this time of year, puts a smile on my face.
All of this to say humans have the gift to change their reality. The will to choose how each experience of each moment can and will effect their spirit.
Man life is great, i haven’t felt this in control in a long time. Sorry for the ramble, just some more thoughts on my ever changing life.

Happy Thanksgiving….
I am so thankful for you
:)(: Renee